the lies burn like a coals
beneath my ribs
hot and unsettling
unsteady breath
just months ago
I had fragile skin
you could hear my heart beat
when I walked in
where did I lose my trust?
in the sand pits
in the darkness
in the moments
where the ones I believed
called me a rebel
runaway
thief
time eroding
wearing me thick
like snail shells
and tree rings
circularly widening
trap the pain inside of me
burning core-
like earth's center
I'm a building
collapsing inward
internalized arrows
eternalized puncture
I don't want to crush you
in the rubble
I don't want to burn you
in the fire
but my pretense
cuts like a blade of ice
shrapnel and stinging tears
I never meant to lock you out
I never meant to swallow fear
And I'm sorry.
