torn

My memories fell,
pieces of pottery
scattered around me,
shards cut my hands.
but.
blood just means my heart still beats
driving through the midnight streets
to songs I've never heard

the wind so strong
my windows shake,
and I must pay for my mistakes.

torn away, soul from body
I'm lost and far, far away,
colors I've never seen
figures from my dreams
drawn in the sky,
and the stars, like chandeliers,
go sweeping by

the air is thick,
I feel the weight
and I must pay for my mistakes.

titanic heart

Wild boy, freedom's spin
Music written on your skin

I've seen the shipwrecks
In your eyes
I've seen the pain
Of compromise

Don't run up the white flag,
Close the door.
Leave me on the kitchen floor

Lost boy, titanic heart
Where did all your sorrow start?

Re(evolution)

Every day I grow braver,
each moment brings me closer,
to the heat
from the fire in your eyes

when I first saw you,
all the tumbling digits
within me
fell into place.
I opened wide

I did not wait for you with patience
I sought you with
calculated determination
like a heat seeking missile.

I frightened myself

This isn't quiet love

Not wine and candlelight
But bonfires and firefights
(Explosions in the sky)

Kingdom come

pulled in a thousand directions
taunt tight-rope
toss and tumble.
Every teacher at my school
every song, every book
save a sacred few
screams at me that God is dead
hope is gone, and truth isn't true

your kingdom come
your will be done

in this burned out,
cynical world

for you surpass the
weak understanding of man
and the foolish philosophies
of the bitter-hearted

but I know:
I need you

your kingdom come
your will be done

amidst my conflict and confusion
you're a map in the wild
lamp in the dark
roof over my head
boots on my feet
money in my pocket
for a  cup of tea

you warm my bones
fill me to overflow

in every cell of my body,
your kingdom come
in every word, in every thought,
your will be done.

Sudden gold and barricades

in some moments of clarity,
light, fire and sudden gold,
I'm fearlessly certain
(and certainly fearless)

lenses focus- sharp image
cold fog lifts, swept away

and I can see the mountain ranges

underneath the brilliant sky,
blinking like a newborn
in the light

life vibrates within me

but today I feel the heavy clouds
press, nothing to arrest my doubts
rainfall, and old walls
barricade my heart

I wish you were here
we would laugh at disaster
never running from a fight
finding adventure
breathing the danger

vibrating with life.

the truth will set you free but it might hurt.

All I have is truth
(and it won't be still)
it seethes and breathes
within me
in a most unsettling way

and you are walking
quite slow towards tomorrow
(It's not wrong to be afraid)

but my name isn't Comfort,
(sorry)
my eyes are not gray.
My presence is a gunshot
stampede startle.
I don't know how to soothe and
smooth away

Some days,
I hardly feel human.
I'm compelled and pressed
squeezing my chest
are the words I try to withhold

all I am is honesty,
bright blue sparks in the electric evening
sunset out of sight

wash

Torn up and wadded

worn from overuse

these thoughts are antiquity 

Wash me

my palms

underneath the universe

my shoulders ache 

the sorrow of knowledge

the bitter weight

Wash me

drums in the Temples

pound in my temples

heartache from religion

headache from philosophy

Wash me

turn the tide

of snowballing cynicism

turn the tide

sweep me out to sea

wash me like a newborn

in the saltwater

I've seen oceans in your eyes

I know you can

turn the tide